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A Scapegoat for Your Apple Eating

by Jenna Kole

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1.
To Leave 02:41
It was in my bones I felt the tide just stop She drowned herself, the waves drop Even the trees want us to leave How can the breeze begin to grieve? Inside my spine a bell shivers and rings Inside my cells: a river that brings your sweet face and eyes to me... There’s no trace of me in that sea Cresting rhythms pound soft then stronger And my heart’s just smooth round glass Beating longer It was in my bones I felt the tide just stop
2.
Foresight 03:31
I think I’m coming down with whatever’s spreading through town; Kicking dirt around, filling holes yet to be found. Every time I try foresight my thoughts get ahead of me. Lean into the stone though from here you can’t see home; Comforts we’ve outgrown, fickle warmth, embers in the stove. Inside jokes on the outside, broken folks trying to fix their minds. I nearly fell for it, open door since the day we met. How could I forget, misery loves a houseguest. Every time I try foresight my thoughts get ahead of me.
3.
I can hardly catch my breath You ran away so fast I don’t know if I can keep up with you now I don’t know if I can catch up with you now Just numb yourself and play along Time flies much faster that way Don’t stop and think about what You think needs to be said I’ll try not to notice How the sun makes your skin glow You’ll try not to notice how My words make your insides show I don’t know if I can catch up with you now Just numb yourself and play along Time flies much faster that way Don’t stop and think about what You think needs to be said It’s better left undone
4.
do you believe uneven things will level out in some way someday it will come back to you remember why you’re giving it we can debate about what wastes time later throwing it away won’t make you feel better knowing night falls doesn’t make you sleep in the daylight so much is at your feet just because you didn’t see it coming doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy it it’s not what you predicted doesn’t mean you should destroy it throw your cards down on the floor you know I’ll tell you a thousand times I know you know I want what’s best for you everything ends sometimes you learn the hard way you have a choice why don’t you say all there is to say we can debate about what wastes time later throwing it away won’t make you feel better knowing night falls doesn’t make you sleep in the daylight so much has atrophied just because you didn’t see it coming doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy it it’s not what you predicted doesn’t mean you should destroy it throw your cards down on the floor you know I’ll tell you a thousand times I know you know I want what’s best for you
5.
Planes Fall 04:58
Spindly branches, as winter leaves; Pregnant pods, petals and leaves. Planes fall out of the sky, yeah stay in your seat, planes fall out of the sky, they'll say make your peace. Is it a signal? Should I be looking for smoke? Maybe it's water pressing on my throat Feel the earth pushing up at your feet Feel the earth when you bear your teeth When you’re bare, feel the earth Fluttering fingers, get your glance Fences are only circumstance A little friction never hurt no one A little fiction -- it could be fun Is it a signal? Should I be looking for smoke? Maybe it's water pressing on my throat Feel the earth pushing up at your feet Feel the earth when you bear your teeth When you’re bare, feel the earth
6.
Just a taste to cleanse the palate, All of you couldn't satisfy, The space still sleeping inside. Shed the skin of someone stronger, Slowly harden within; Know the silhouette of your own skin. A scapegoat for your apple eating; and born of your own form: Symptoms of a greater problem, From a god who bore this storm. Planting empty trojan horses Left on the front lines: Enlistment of the blind. Stuck onto those lofty branches; Enemies of a quiet mind; Enlistment of the blind. A scapegoat for your apple eating; and born of your own form: Symptoms of a greater problem, From a god who bore this storm.
7.
It’s been an honor to watch you grow I’ll try not to lace this with some opposing view You have turned into a real fine adult I can’t take credit it’s not my fault Maybe It’s not right for me to stay Maybe it’s not right for me to say There’s nothing to see through Don’t know if you knew I’m fucking proud of you, yeah, I’m proud Don’t you go worrying about mindlessness Go ask the "sane ones" if they know what’s best Maybe It’s not right for me to stay Maybe it’s not right for me to say There’s nothing to see through Don’t know if you knew I’m fucking proud of you, yeah, I’m proud I don't mean to imply that I expected less It's just that from this side time leave me a mess I couldn't feel less like a full grown adult But then I see you and know some of it's my fault Maybe it’s not right for me to say
8.
I know your urgency It’s got the push/pull of the sea Squint my eyes so I can see New constellations forming Want to sleep but you can’t All the last songs play in your head Put your hand on her back and say Everything is alright… even if it’s a lie Stars chase the light around Even though the wind dies down Waves break when they meet the ground Even though the wind lies down Stars chase the light around Even though the wind lies down Even though the wind dies down Even when the wind lies This house should be quiet But goddamn white noise machines Swallowing silence Stars are exploding Want to wake up but you can’t That goddamn last song plays in your head With her hand on your back she’ll say Everything is alright.... even if it’s a lie.
9.
Bernadette 04:58
Every word you swallow you’re closer to god Any room you hollow you’re less of a fraud Your mouth and your money are moving in step Silenced and muddied, no flow, just the ebb. It's hard to imagine it's not over yet You learn to get used to it Bernadette The elders would gasp at your sacrifice You’d demure and respond, you “wouldn’t think twice” A victim of bloodlines full with turned cheeks Time moves swiftly when you’re told what to seek/how to speak It's hard to imagine it's not over yet You learn to get used to it Bernadette It’s not for me and I can’t give it back I refuse to believe It all fades to black A lump in my throat I’m sure I deserve Sure I've got questions But never had the nerve Every word held back settles in your bones Would things have been different could you have known You’ve only held back what could’ve helped you Now they’re trails, broken hearts fall around you It's hard to imagine it's not over yet You learn to get used to it Bernadette
10.
Come Over 03:38
Where can I put all this love? Where did I keep all this fear? I can’t keep laughing, the joke is not funny And it feels like the end is near. But look at your friends, they haven’t had enough sleep Everyone’s tired but we’re all listening Grab each other, it’s all that’s left Hold each other, the ones that are left We’re tired - one too many goodbyes In silence, you can see it in their eyes Come over - talk about it Come over - drink about it Come over, you know we’ll cry about it Outside doesn’t have to be your mirror Just look at me, I’ll be standing right here I’ll tell ya, hi sweet angel, ya look good I’ll tell ya, just like I know ya would Then I’ll remind you to live in your truth And I’ll remind you, it’s fine to need to be soothed Come over - talk about it Come over - drink about it Come over you know we’ll cry about it, that’s fine. It’s fine to come over

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This is my first full-length solo album. It's about fucking time. Calling it solo is kind of ridiculous, it literally could not have come to fruition without the help of Matt Luger, who made all the juicy tasty bits, pulled me out of every goddamn funk, recorded, engineered, helped me produce and took the cover photo. So, thanks Matt. You're a gentleman and a scholar and I am happily forever in your debt.

I have the best friends. Thank you guys so much for bearing with me. This is a tribute to all of you.

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released April 5, 2019

Jenna Kole - Vocals, Guitar, Piano, Keyboard
Matt Luger - Guitar, Keyboard, Piano, Bass, Tasty Bits
Jay Kole - Drums, Percussion
Emily Barker - Background Vocals

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Jenna Kole Richmond, Virginia

I am a songwriter from Locust Grove, VA.

I finally recorded a full-length solo album released in April of 2019!

I have been busy with a few bands over the years. I have decided to also include the remaining recordings of those projects in this collection mostly so I can remind myself I have actually been doing stuff all this time.

Consider it my musical scrapbook.
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